Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Why? Why is HIM?

People will ask why is HIM?
Even as a gal themselves, they will ask themselves, WHY IS HIM?

I got my own answer already.
Why is HIM? *other than destiny

He is the only one I can talk with without pressure stress. I have my own mood, my own private problem. I would like to share with someone I trust most so as to make myself feel better. Family and friends do around us everytimes. But will you tell them everything. I bet you won't. You will talk to someone you trust with. Whenever I met any problem or I'm sad, I would only share my problem with him. Although sometimes he can't help me too, at least, he is a very very good listener. Dislike others, thinking that its just useless or action_ing, its yet true.
He cares me a lot more than I expect. He just like part of my family. Whenever I met any problem, he will try his best to help me without asking for rebate. When I need someone, he will always be the only one come to me first. He is just an ordinary guy, but different is he will make me laugh out loud or smile sincerely.
Don't ask me why. It is like that. He cares me more than you people are. He knows what am I thinking by looking at my face. And he is the only one who can read 90% of my mind without asking me. Spending money or anything is not workable for me. I just need someone who will care me a lot and listen to me whenever I need it.

Thursday, April 17, 2008


I realise something finally.
Friends are always besides me whenever I was helpless.

And HIM!!
When I was sad, he will feel hurt and angry behalf of me.
When I was helpless, he will always try to spend sometimes to help me.
When I was happy, no matter how tired he was, how moody he was, he will at least smile to make me more happier.
When I was sick, he will concern about me a lot no matter how busy he was.
When I was lazy to do my job, he will scold me and stop me from being lazy.
When I was boring, he will try to do something or find some activities to kill my time.
When I need him by my side, he will always there for me.

I miss the moments we talked at my house car porch. He sent me my biscuits. We have a short talk downstair before he went to his friend's house. Don't why I feel so happy and relax when we were chit chatting there. We crapped a lot. Laugh smile happy.
He is almost part of my life. He is another closest person with me other than my family at here. There is always a shoulder for me to lean on whenever I need it.
There is no much more I can said.

Last but not least,
Thanks a lot for everything. I appreciate everything you did. Really Thanks a lot.

p/s..miss you a lot!!

Monday, April 14, 2008


I've abandoned my blog for few months ago. I really can't recall why I did my last post. But this post will be *untitled*. It is because there will be lots of words and words and thingy inside my post.

As usual, I'm now doing my Year 2. This semester I feel so challenging with my study. Assignments and quizes as well as test everytime. But I never feel tired with the assignments or tests given. This is because I think that this is my own time and moment to study. I think most of the people will agree with me. In University life, all the teenagers are becoming mature and outgoing. Unlike in secondary, once we are free from the assignments and tests, we will just declare holiday for ourselves. We will go hang out with friends or spend our times with our loves on. The same goes to me. Whenever there is assignment or test, I would really stress myself by tying my hair up to the ceiling to finish my assignments or my revision everyday. However, I would declare myself holiday to spend my time by watching series or meeting friends as well as my love one.

However, this year, I discover a study method that it is useful for me and I think is suitable for all my friends as well. And now I feel like sharing this method.
1. Whenever there is an assignment given by our lecturer, appreciate it. Cos this is the only time you will flip over and over your course notes and reference books. From here, you can learn few words or even few points.

2. Try to give yourselves 30 minutes to prepare for the class next day. This will indeed let you understand easily and adsorb faster in the class.

3. Never stress yourselves in every obstacles you meet in the study. Take it easy. Everything will solve in the end.

4. Last but not least, declare yourselves a holiday every fortnightly. This will help you to refresh your brain after 2 weeks hardwork. *but not delete everything in your mind.

With the above study method, I found that it is workable on me. So how do you think?

It is 2.47am now. I'm sleepless. I'm now enjoying my mid term holiday. However, I never feel happy with my holiday. It seems like there is still something ruin my mood daily. I've tried and put so many efforts to overcome this kind of feeling. But it still not working. I would like to tell "him" that I will never forget how "helling" i get scolded that day. Thanks a lot for your scoldings. From this I learned a lot and I finally realize and know everything. No worry. I will be strong and one day I will let you be proud of me. Proud that I can do something independently without you, you and you.

However, whenever I was upset, fei fei will always accompany me from time to time. He never scold me for acting stubborn but help me up whenever I was sad. This is when I have a shoulder to lean against. Feeling the warm and care outside my hometown. Although sometimes he cant really do anything to help me, however, he will try to make me smile whenever my tears dropped. Although he was sick or not feeling well, he will always try to make me smile as he said, fei fei will never let afei cry. He will always come out with jokes to make me smile or even laugh as loud as I can. But Fei Fei, I would like to tell you that, do you realize that, my tears drop easily. This is because warm and care from you let me feel so touch. I won't say I can't live without you. But I will say I want to stay with you forever.

However, this 2 weeks I learned a lot of thingy. The most important one I learned to take care a sick person. I'd learn how to cook a tasty grean pea soup with barley as to get once heat off. I've learned how to give emergency help when someone needed. Previously I will think that by paying money to get the medicine will cure once sickness. But now, I feel that concern by the love one is the basic way to help the patient. But for sure don't make it very lengthy. haha..The most important, I learned how to be independence and protect myself. But last but not least, always remember that friends are always besides.

Anyway, I think I should stop this *untitled* here. Will try to update my blog frequently. And wish me good luck. Gambate to myself. Good luck to all my friends and classmates.

*ling, I miss you a lot.